Watchcare meetings.

I just came back from watchcare meetings. Oh, it was so fun! I love when we break up into small groups like that! :D 

Well, random highlights: I was greeted with some interesting exclamations and questions. :D Hmm, I slipped in the mud. It was kind of funny. I was just walking along real quietly, and then all of a sudden I stepped in something squishy and then I started my descent to the ground. I think I made some kind of humorous noise, but I don't remember quite what I said, then when I finally hit the ground, all I said was "Oh!" Then all the attention was on me, and I was embarrassed. I was trying to look for a place to rinse off, but then people just started laughing. I started laughing too. It was pretty funny. I made a new friend too. :D

PRAISE GOD!!!

Guess what, guys!!! I'm OK! :D 

I went to the doctor today to hear about my blood test results. I was so nervous, because I was afraid that I either had a really rare disease or my vitamin levels were really off. Neither of those were true! Ok, well...just one was true. I'll tell you.

I'm only lacking vitamin D. The doctor said its level is like at 26, and the norm is 30-100. I have to take a vitamin D supplement and get out in the sunshine more. :) I was so happy to find out that I don't have leukemia, diabetes or lupus!! :D Not that the doctor thought I had those things, just saying!

Praise God for good health! I am so, so thankful. Not only that but I found baby hairs yesterday!! And the doctor said my hair is looking thicker than it did when I went to see him last week!! Oh, God has been so good to me!! Thank you, Lord!! :D

Prayer.

Ok, so since this thing has been going on with my hair, I've had many people come up to me and tell me that they're praying for me. Oh, it has been so encouraging! It is so hard to watch my hair go. I've already given it up to God. I told God a long time ago that He can take from me what He wants, sin I've been holding back, my life, everything.

Never did I think that He would take something from me like my hair. 

Honestly.

It's so weird having to give up something to do with my physical appearance.

But I know God has a plan for this.

It's interesting how He takes away something that I was so confident in. If you've read my blog, I've said that I'm so proud of my hair and how straight, strong and wonderful it is...

All to say, God is really showing me how I can depend on Him through this. I'm willing to give up my hair to learn what He is teaching me. I know there is a purpose. I just don't want to miss the lesson. 

My blood test results are in. I'm going to the doctor first thing tomorrow morning. 

I'm resting in the assurance that God has this all in His control. :) God is good, whether I have a full head of hair or not.

My doctor's visit.

So. I went to the doctor this morning. Finally. :)

He asked me what was going on. I told him that since last Sunday, I've been noticing that more hair has been falling out of my head than normal. I didn't really do anything about it, because I didn't think it was a big deal. I started getting a little worried on Monday, and I looked it up online and figured that since it's fall, I'm losing more hair (it said that people lose more hair in the fall). I also started trying to eat better this past week, just in case it was a nutritional thing. I know that the results aren't instantaneous, but my condition started getting worse. I switched my shampoo yesterday, and it helped a little, but going to the doctor would help my peace of mind.

Then he asked me if the hair in my eyebrows was falling out too, nope; if my skin has been unusually dry, nope. Then he checked my heart and my liver, and then decided that I should change my shampoo and eat a more balanced diet. 

I'm going to have blood drawn tomorrow at around 630, and I am quite nervous. I don't like blood or needles, but I must go through this. :) I'll be ok. They are going to check for vitamin deficiencies and see if I have a rare disease or something, like lupus. I don't think that it could be anything serious, but I still ask for prayers...especially about the procedure, because that makes me nervous...:D 

Thank you guys for your prayers!! I truly appreciate it! :)

I wrote this on Sunday. :) It's kind of late. 

I'm scared.

I've been losing hair. I've been losing a lot of hair, actually.

And it scares me. I can actually see my hair thinning out and it seriously freaks me out. 

Tons will fall out in the shower.

I am really scared.

I'm going to the doctor on Sunday...which is really soon, but still...it feels like so far away.

I think it's my shampoo.

I didn't realize how traumatizing it is to pull out lots of strands of hair at once.

This totally allows me to empathize with people that lose their hair. 

It's...discouraging.

Please pray for me. I just want my hair back...

I am getting this feeling that God is using this to have me trust in Him and not to worry about all the many things that I could worry about. I am willing to go through this and learn from it. I just want to have the faith it takes to come out strong.

I claim this verse.

Luke 12:7

"But even the very hairs on your head are numbered. Fear not therefore. Ye are of more value than many sparrows"

*sigh* :D

Today was a really super awesome day. I love Sundays. I love the smell of Sunday mornings. Clean hair, minty gum, and COFFEE!! Those are the smells of church at Harvest. 

Anyway, Sunday school was awesome! Bob Roberts is here doing the children's programs for Summit Meetings this week. He preached for Sunday school, and it was really neat. It made me look at the Gospel message in a new way, and it challenged me to be totally accurate when telling children, specifically, about salvation. It's pretty tricky yet real simple. :) I liked it.

Then Dr. Vaughn preached the message this morning. Oh buddy! It was super good! He's preaching about brokenness, and he told us about what happened to his family like so many years ago, and it so amazing to see God work!! Pastor Herron preached a message like two weeks ago, I think, and he said that: What man creates and breaks, becomes worthless, but what God creates and breaks, becomes useable. Something like that. 

Oh yeah, a bunch of us are in the skits for the children's program. It's stuff about knights and King Arthur. Jon is King Arthur. I'm Princess Gwenivere. C.J. is Sir Sagramore/the Dark Knight. Luke is Sir Benivere (something like that). Uhhh, Kyle is Merlin. I don't remember the rest, but it's a lot of fun!! :D

It's a cycle.

*sigh* Life. is. hard. 

That's the truth.

I don't know why I just feel like I want to cry for extended periods of time.

I'm going to make a list. We haven't had one in a long time. :)

1. You're like Sunday morning pleasing my eyes.

2. A midsummer dream under star-soaked skies. 

3. That peaceful easy feeling at the end of a long, long road. 

4. You're like coming home. :)

5. Yes, I do realize those are lines to a chorus of a song, but that's how I feel. :)

6. I'm super full right now. I feel like you could just roll me around places.

7. I've cried so much in this past week!

8. I like when I cry those huge teardrops...it feels cool when the roll down my face...

9. *sigh* Confrontation is like my number one fear.

10. Roaches are my number two fear. 

Ok, ignore the list. My thoughts are all discombobulated. Life's been throwing me some pretty crazy things, but I don't really know where to begin. Hah...I'm crying again. :)

Someway, somehow. I'm growing up. I can feel it.

God is good, amidst all that life throws at me.